So, I've been all introspective and what not lately, right? One of the things I've been thinking about is my tendency to give up on things the second they got difficult. Growing up, I did not cope well with challenges. I was naturally smart and good at enough things that I could appear multi-talented while sliding by, only doing the things that came to me easily (writing, speaking in public, learning foreign languages, et cetera). As soon as it looked like I'd have to put in actual work at something, I'd quit.
Nice, huh? I was that lazy smart kid all the adults just wanted to shake violently.
What really got me to outgrow this behavior was roller derby. I have short little legs, a pathetic upper respiratory system, and about seventeen left feet, but this was something I wanted so damn bad that I decided giving up was not an option. I don't think I'll ever be any sort of derby superstar, but with a lot of work, I manage to be pretty good. The fun thing I've learned is that doing pretty well at something for which I've worked my ass off is actually more rewarding than excelling at something I can do in my sleep.
This brings me to my next challenge: Music. My entire family is musically talented. My mother is an impressive viola player, and my brother and my dad are the sort of people who can play pretty much anything you hand them. My parents had me in music lessons for years, but I had trouble learning to sight-read, so (you guessed it) I shrugged and gave up. I've been thinking that with my newfound work ethic, I just might want to give music another try. Or a first real try. There is a full-size concert harp in my parents' living room. My dad is a damn good harpist, but between his job and getting another degree, he hasn't played much in the last several years. I am going to learn to play it. Thanks to weight lifting, I've got the hand and arm strength already and the harp is such a pretty-sounding instrument that even if you're not very good, it's rather forgiving. Once I have the money to do so (about three hundred bucks, shouldn't be too long), I'm getting the harp re-strung and demanding that my dad teach me.This is going to be fun. It's going to be hard, and it's going to be fun